Affecting Spectacle

tuesday, january 7th

if people can't understand me,
that's fine.
i don't even understand myself,
or
people.
or
life.

Art boys are whiny; beings of annoying shyness paired with angst, doubt and self-pity. Are sensitive, and emotional, and silent melodramatic princes. And are probably secretly gay. ugh,
stop ignoring me.


sunday, january 5th

//
my vanity,
my pride,
my pretension,
my self-pity,
my anxiety,
my thoughts,
my choices,
my actions
my emotions.


//\\
Strung along,
Strung out,
Wandering.

Bound to both,
Ugliness
And,
To beauty.

Strung along conned by vanity
Strung out on ugliness.
A wandering contradiction.
A wandering confusion.
A wandering contempt.
Bred,
Born,
And brought to live only to die.

The awkwardness between birth and death.
Even her make up couldn't disguise her sadness.
Never knowing,
Never understanding
Never having a clue to a reason why.

A wandering contradiction.
A wandering confusion.
A wandering contempt.
And if life doesn't kill her first
She'll beat it to it.


[ Just because you saw it in a movie doesn't mean it's true.]
[                    Doesn't meant it'll happen to you.                 ]